Monday, October 24, 2011

Feeling a little emotional....

   As I start this blog post, I realized I’m filled many emotions tonight, from excitement to nervousness to worry to stress. Excitement kicked in today because we received our appointment letter in the mail to go get our fingerprints done for the USCIS!!! This is great news, since most of the blog posts I have read from other adopting families it took awhile for them to receive their letter and then once they did receive their appointments they were about a month or so away....ours however is in 2 weeks!! This is so great and exciting!! We are going to try and walk in to see if we can get them done sooner but if not 2 weeks from today we will be getting that done!!:)  Along with the excitement I am feeling a little stressed, this part of our process is going by VERY fast and I just hope and pray we are going to be ready to go when the time comes. I hope to finish compiling our dossier in the next 2 or 3 weeks so that once we get our “golden ticket” we can put it in the box and send it off to Aaron’s country! This is where the worry kicks in, as most of you know adopting a child is VERY expensive and I am really worried about not raising enough funds to get to our boy. I am truly praying that our Harvest Hoedown fundraiser can bring in the funds we need to cover the last part of our adoption; which is the most expensive part! So please if you get a second can you say a little prayer for us? We’ll take all the prayers we can get!:) The nervousness is from reality setting in; in just a few short months (hopefully in January) we will be traveling to a far away country to get our little boy. And the unknown is really making me nervous, from the language barrier we’ll face to riding the metro to living in a different country for 4 to 6 weeks…..don’t get me wrong I’m super excited to get to our boy and bring him home but no matter how much information the families before us give to us, the unknown still makes me a little nervous. But the biggest emotion I am feeling is excitement, excitement over meeting our son, excitement to finally get to hold him in my arms and of course the excitement to let him know his mommy and daddy are here and we are not going anywhere!! I just wish there was a way to let him know we are coming and will be there soon! I hope he feels our love for him even though we are thousands of miles away…..

As this blog comes to and end, I wanted to share this song I have loved since Ryan was born and I think about every night as I go to sleep and can’t wait to sing it to our little man once we get to him…..I have posted it below, please enjoy it!:)

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